Adult Children of Narcissistic Parents: The Specific Damage of Being Raised by One

By Dr. Maria Niitepold, PsyD | Licensed Psychologist | EMDR, Brainspotting & CRM

If you grew up with a narcissistic parent, the wound is not always where people expect to find it.

You may not have a clear story of abuse. There may not be a single event you can point to. You may have been told, repeatedly, how lucky you were, how much they sacrificed, how good you had it. From the outside, the family may have looked enviable: high-functioning, accomplished, well-spoken. The damage was real, but it ran underneath the visible surface of the household, in a thousand small interactions that did not look like trauma but accumulated into one.

What you carry into adulthood is often not a memory of harm. It is a pattern. A way of bracing before you walk into family events. A way of monitoring the emotional weather of every relationship as though your safety depended on it, because once it did. A high-functioning competence that masks a persistent internal sense of being too much, not enough, somehow fundamentally wrong. A self that learned to disappear into whatever the room required, because the parent who was supposed to mirror you back to yourself instead used you as a mirror for them.

This piece is for the adults who were raised by narcissistic parents and who are now trying to understand what happened, why it still affects them, and what kind of work actually moves the wound. I write this as a psychologist who works with adult children of narcissistic parents, often after they have done years of conventional therapy without the symptoms fully resolving. The reason the symptoms persist is not a failure of the therapy or the client. It is that the wound lives at a level that most therapy does not reach.

Quick Answer: What Is the Impact of Being Raised by a Narcissistic Parent?

Adult children of narcissistic parents often carry high-functioning anxiety, persistent self-doubt, difficulty with intimate relationships, and a chronic sense that something is wrong with them. The wound forms when a child's job becomes managing the parent's emotional state instead of developing a stable sense of self. Healing requires somatic trauma therapy that reaches the developmental patterns talk therapy alone cannot.

Table of Contents

1. What "Narcissistic Parent" Actually Means in Clinical Practice

2. The Specific Damage of Being Raised by a Narcissistic Parent

3. The Role You Were Assigned (And Why You Could Not Refuse)

4. What Adult Children of Narcissistic Parents Look Like From the Outside

5. Why the Wound Persists Long After You Have Left the Family

6. Why Talk Therapy Alone Often Falls Short

7. How EMDR, Brainspotting, and CRM Address the Wound

8. No Contact, Limited Contact, or Staying: Each Choice Has Its Own Healing

9. What Healing Actually Looks Like (And What It Doesn't Look Like)

10. Checklist: Were You Raised by a Narcissistic Parent?

11. Frequently Asked Questions

What "Narcissistic Parent" Actually Means in Clinical Practice

In popular discourse, narcissism has become a label thrown loosely at anyone selfish, vain, or difficult. In clinical practice, the term describes something more specific: a pattern of relating in which the other person exists primarily as a function of the narcissist's internal state rather than as a separate person with their own interior life. The narcissist does not relate to the world. They relate to what the world reflects back to them about themselves, and they organize their environment, including their children, around the regulation of that reflection.

A narcissistic parent does not necessarily fit the DSM criteria for Narcissistic Personality Disorder. Many do not. The clinical category that matters more for the adult child's experience is the relational pattern itself: a parent who could not see the child as a separate person with their own developing interior, who used the child instead as a source of regulation, validation, status, projection, or control. The child existed for the parent rather than alongside them. That is the structural feature that produces the damage.

This pattern shows up in many forms. The grandiose narcissistic parent who needed constant admiration and treated the child as a trophy or a disappointment depending on how well the child performed. The covert or vulnerable narcissistic parent who presented as long-suffering, victimized, and chronically wounded, and who required the child to soothe, accommodate, and protect them from their own emotional reality. The malignant narcissistic parent whose self-regulation involved active cruelty toward the child, often disguised as discipline, concern, or teaching. The somatic narcissistic parent whose primary preoccupation was their own body or appearance and who related to the child's body as either extension or rival.

What unites them is the structural inversion of the parent-child relationship. The child's job became taking care of the parent's emotional state rather than the parent taking care of the child's. Everything else that follows in adulthood, every symptom, every pattern, every relationship difficulty, traces back to that structural inversion. As I explore in How Childhood Emotional Neglect Creates Emotional Unavailability in Adults, this kind of developmental environment produces specific adaptations whose costs do not become fully visible until the child is grown.

The Specific Damage of Being Raised by a Narcissistic Parent

The damage from narcissistic parenting is not a single wound. It is a developmental shaping that affects the formation of the self at its most basic level. To understand the adult symptoms, you have to understand what the child was actually doing during the years when most children are developing a stable sense of who they are.

A child raised by an emotionally attuned caregiver learns, over thousands of small interactions, that their interior experience is real, that it matters, that someone else can hold it without becoming destabilized by it, and that their feelings can be communicated and met. This is not a conscious learning. It happens in the nervous system, through the regulation that occurs when a calm adult is present with the child's distress.

A child raised by a narcissistic parent learns something fundamentally different. They learn that their interior experience is dangerous, because it might destabilize the parent. They learn that their feelings, when expressed, will be punished, used, dismissed, or absorbed and amplified in ways that overwhelm them. They learn that the parent's emotional state is the weather they must track in order to survive, and that their own state is irrelevant to the system. The child's nervous system develops in this environment. It encodes these patterns at the level of implicit memory and autonomic response. By the time the child reaches adulthood, the patterns are running below conscious awareness and have generalized far beyond the original family.

The specific damage tends to take a few forms.

A persistent sense that something is wrong with you. The child of a narcissistic parent was held responsible for the parent's emotional state. When the parent was angry, anxious, withdrawn, or dysregulated, the child's nervous system registered the disturbance as evidence that they had done something wrong. Over years, this produces an internal voice that locates the source of every disturbance in the self. The adult who carries this cannot quite shake the sense that they are the problem, even when the evidence does not support it.

Difficulty trusting your own perception. Narcissistic parents often gaslight, deny the child's reality, reframe events to favor themselves, and rewrite history when it suits them. As I explore in The Neurobiology of Narcissistic Gaslighting: Why You Feel "Crazy", the developmental version of this is particularly damaging because it occurs during the years when the child is establishing the basic mechanism of trusting their own observations. The adult who emerges from this environment chronically second-guesses themselves, defers to others' interpretations of reality even when their own is more accurate, and feels a low-grade vertigo about what is actually true.

A false self that became more developed than the true self. When a child cannot bring their genuine interior into the relationship with the parent, because the parent will not tolerate it, the child develops an alternative self that is acceptable to the parent. This false self learns to perform, accommodate, achieve, and please. Over years, the false self becomes the primary operating system, and the true self goes underground. As I explore in Why Do I Feel Like I Lost Myself? (Narcissistic Abuse and the "False Self"), in adulthood the false self continues running automatically while the true self remains buried, which produces the experience many adult children describe of not knowing who they are, of feeling like an actor in their own life, of being unable to access genuine preference or desire.

Hyper-attunement to others at the expense of self. The child whose survival depended on tracking the parent's state develops an extraordinary capacity for reading other people. In adulthood, this presents as empathy, sensitivity, or emotional intelligence, and it is often valued by others, but it has a hidden cost. As I explore in Hyper-Independence Is Not a Strength: It's a Trauma Response (And Why You're So Tired), the system that is always tracking others is unavailable for tracking the self. The adult child knows how everyone around them is feeling and has very limited access to how they themselves are feeling.

Difficulty with self-worth that is not contingent on achievement or function. Many adult children of narcissistic parents are extraordinarily accomplished. The accomplishments often serve a regulatory function: they provide brief moments of feeling worthwhile, after which the worthlessness returns and requires more achievement to keep at bay. The self-worth is not stable. It is purchased, repeatedly, through performance.

The Role You Were Assigned (And Why You Could Not Refuse)

In narcissistic family systems, children are usually assigned roles that serve the parent's psychological needs. The roles are not chosen by the child. They are imposed early and reinforced over years, and they often persist into adulthood as patterns of self.

The golden child. The child who carries the parent's grandiose projection. They are exceptional, special, gifted, the proof of the parent's worth. They receive the parent's positive attention but only as long as they continue to fulfill the projection. The cost is that they cannot be a regular child with regular limitations and regular needs. They must be the projection, and any failure to be the projection produces severe destabilization in the relationship.

The scapegoat. The child who carries the parent's disowned negative material. They are difficult, problematic, ungrateful, the source of family trouble. They receive the parent's negative attention and serve the regulatory function of being the container for everything the parent cannot tolerate in themselves. The cost is profound shame and a chronic sense of being fundamentally bad. The scapegoat often grows up to be the most psychologically aware of the siblings precisely because they were forced to grapple with what the family insisted was wrong with them.

The lost child. The child who learned that being visible was dangerous and adapted by becoming invisible. They did not receive much attention of any kind. They learned to take up no space, ask for nothing, and meet their own needs through internal worlds, books, fantasy, or independence. The cost is a deep loneliness and a difficulty in adulthood with being seen at all, even when being seen is safe.

The parentified child. The child who became the emotional caregiver, the regulator, the confidante, the partner-substitute for a parent whose actual partner could not or would not meet their needs. As I explore in Why Am I Grieving a Childhood I Never Actually Had? The Hidden Grief of the Parentified Child, this is the role that often produces the highest-functioning adults and the most invisible damage. They learned to manage adult emotional content before they had developed their own capacity to be a child.

The eldest daughter specifically. A particularly common version of the parentified role appears in eldest daughters across cultures, and produces a recognizable adult presentation. As I explore in Eldest Daughter Syndrome: The Psychology of the Compulsive Caregiver (Type A3), these are the adults who cannot rest, who feel responsible for everyone, who experience their own needs as inconveniences to be managed quietly, and who often arrive in therapy decades into a life they have organized around other people.

Roles are not always stable. Some children move between roles depending on the parent's needs in a given period. Some are assigned different roles by different parents. Some carry several roles at once. What unites them is that the child did not choose. The role was imposed, the child adapted in order to maintain whatever connection was available, and the adaptation became part of how the self is structured.

What Adult Children of Narcissistic Parents Look Like From the Outside

One of the most disorienting features of being an adult child of a narcissistic parent is that the damage is often invisible to the people around you. You may be the friend everyone relies on, the colleague whose work is exemplary, the partner who shows up consistently, the high-functioning adult whose life looks settled from the outside.

You may also be the one who cannot quite explain why you are exhausted at the end of every social gathering. Why you cannot remember the last time you knew what you actually wanted to eat for dinner without first checking whether your partner had a preference. Why you cry in your car after phone calls with your parent but cannot articulate exactly what was said that hurt. Why you have done years of therapy and read every book on the topic and can name every pattern with clinical precision and still cannot stop running them.

You may be the one who, in romantic relationships, picks partners whose emotional unavailability or grandiosity feels familiar in a way you cannot name. As I explore in Why Do I Keep Attracting Toxic Partners? The Neurobiology of "Broken Pickers", this pattern is not random. The nervous system pattern-matches present-day relational dynamics against early templates, and the dynamics it recognizes as familiar are not the same as the dynamics it recognizes as safe.

You may be the one who, in friendships, ends up doing most of the emotional labor without realizing you have done it, who feels resentful and cannot quite figure out why, who has difficulty knowing how much of yourself to share with people, who occasionally finds yourself surprised that someone has noticed something about you, because you did not know you were that visible.

You may be the one whose body holds something you cannot quite reach. Tension in the chest before family events. The specific tightening that happens when your phone rings and your parent's name appears on the screen. The dread of holidays. The not-quite-anxiety, not-quite-dread that arrives on the drive home after seeing them. The way your speech changes when you are around them, becoming younger, more measured, less yours.

From the outside, you look like you are doing fine. From the inside, fine is a performance you have been running so long you no longer remember being anything else.

Why the Wound Persists Long After You Have Left the Family

Most adult children of narcissistic parents arrive at therapy assuming that leaving home should have ended the impact. They are confused, sometimes for years, about why the patterns continue even though they have not lived under the parent's roof for decades. Some have gone no contact and still cannot shake the dynamics. Some have done extensive intellectual work on the family system and can describe everything that happened with precision, and the dynamics still show up in their adult relationships, their work life, their internal monologue.

The reason the wound persists is that it was encoded during the developmental years when the nervous system was forming. The patterns are not stored as memories that can be retrieved and examined. They are stored as implicit relational templates that fire automatically whenever the present environment matches the encoded one. The parent does not need to be present for the patterns to run. The patterns are running inside the adult child, generated by their own nervous system, in response to triggers that may not even be conscious.

This is the structural feature that conventional therapy often does not adequately address. As I explore in Why Do I Feel Worse After Talking to My Parents? (Hidden Signs of Emotional Neglect), the adult child can know with complete clarity that the parent was wrong, that the family system was disordered, that they did not cause the problem, and the body still responds to current interactions with the parent as though the original threat is present. The knowing lives in the prefrontal cortex. The response lives in the limbic system and the autonomic nervous system, and the response is faster than the knowing.

If what you are reading here is describing your life, and you have already done years of work to understand it without the wound fully shifting, there are approaches that reach what understanding alone cannot. I offer EMDR, Brainspotting, and CRM for adult children of narcissistic parents across New York and Florida and throughout all PsyPact states.

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Why Talk Therapy Alone Often Falls Short

Many adult children of narcissistic parents have been in therapy for years. They have read the books. They have made the connections between their childhood and their adult patterns. They can describe their family system with clinical precision. They have located the responsibility correctly with the parent rather than with themselves. They have done the work that talk therapy is structurally designed to do.

And the patterns continue. The dread before family events still arrives. The hypervigilance with their own partner still fires. The internal voice that says they are the problem still runs. They wonder, often quietly, whether they are bad at therapy, whether their case is somehow unusual, whether they are doing something wrong.

They are not. The structure of how the wound is encoded means that talk-based interventions reach the cognitive understanding of the wound but not the level at which the wound is actually running. As I explore in Why Understanding Your Trauma Doesn't Heal It (The Insight Trap), the map of the nervous system and the territory of the nervous system are different things, and accurate maps do not produce automatic changes in the territory.

The level at which the wound runs is subcortical. It is in the implicit relational memory system, the autonomic nervous system, and the body's pattern-matched threat responses. Information does not travel from the prefrontal cortex to these systems through language. They receive information through somatic experience, through bilateral processing, through the specific kinds of intervention that target the level where the encoding lives.

This is not a flaw in talk therapy. Talk therapy does what it was designed to do, and the cognitive work it produces is genuinely useful. It just cannot, structurally, reach the deepest level of the wound, and adult children of narcissistic parents are often arriving at the threshold where reaching that level is what the next phase of healing requires.

How EMDR, Brainspotting, and CRM Address the Wound

The three somatic trauma modalities I work with each offer something specific for adult children of narcissistic parents that talk therapy structurally cannot provide.

EMDR (Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing) uses bilateral stimulation to reprocess memories that have been stored incompletely. For adult children of narcissistic parents, the targets are often not single events but cluster memories: representative childhood interactions that encoded the relational pattern. As these specific memories are processed, the broader pattern they encoded begins to update. The child you were in those moments is given the support and the perspective that was absent at the time, and the encoding shifts in response.

Brainspotting accesses the pre-verbal, body-held material that often holds the deepest layer of narcissistic-parenting wounds. Much of what adult children of narcissistic parents carry was encoded before they had words for it, in the body's response to a chronically dysregulating environment. Brainspotting works with the visual field and somatic activation directly, allowing material that the analytical mind has not been able to reach to begin to process. For clients who have done extensive cognitive work and still feel the patterns running, Brainspotting often reaches a layer that other approaches have not.

The Comprehensive Resource Model (CRM) is the approach I most often use with clients whose nervous systems are too dysregulated to begin direct trauma processing immediately. CRM builds internal somatic resources, attachment resources, and what are called sacred place resources before approaching the trauma material directly. As I explore in Why EMDR Felt Too Overwhelming: How the Comprehensive Resource Model (CRM) Makes Trauma Therapy Safe, for clients raised by narcissistic parents whose chronic dysregulation is part of the presentation, CRM is often what allows the work to proceed at all.

What unites all three is that they work at the level where the wound was encoded. They do not require the client to relive what happened or describe it in detail. They allow the implicit memory system to update through experience rather than through explanation. And they can reach what years of talking about the family system could not.

The therapeutic relationship itself is also doing essential work. A child who learned that emotional honesty with a primary attachment figure led to harm, dismissal, or absorption needs not only the cognitive understanding that other relationships can be different. They need the embodied experience of being relationally seen by someone whose nervous system is calm, who does not require regulation from them, and who is genuinely interested in what is happening inside them as a separate person. That experience, repeated over time, is itself a corrective.

No Contact, Limited Contact, or Staying: Each Choice Has Its Own Healing

One of the most common questions adult children of narcissistic parents bring to therapy is what to do about the relationship with the parent now. Should they go no contact. Should they reduce contact. Should they stay in the relationship and try to manage it differently. The answer is not the same for everyone, and any therapist who gives a categorical answer to this question is not actually listening to the specifics of the client's situation.

No contact is the right choice for some clients, particularly when ongoing contact perpetuates abuse, when the parent's behavior is severe enough that any interaction is destabilizing, when the client has been unable to maintain emotional integrity in contact, or when the client simply needs the absence of the parent in their life in order to develop. The grief that follows no contact is real and often surprises clients who expected to feel only relief. The grief is not for the parent who is alive and refusing to be different. It is for the parent the client needed and never had, and that grief work is part of the healing.

Limited contact is right for many clients whose situations are more nuanced. The parent is aging, or the client has other family members they want to maintain contact with, or there are children involved, or the client wants to remain available for whatever genuine connection is possible without sacrificing themselves to do so. Limited contact requires significant internal work: developing the capacity to be in the parent's presence without dropping back into the old patterns, learning to leave situations that have become unsafe, practicing not arguing about reality with someone who cannot meet you in shared reality, and maintaining a sense of self that does not collapse under the parent's projection.

Staying in the relationship without a contact restriction is the right choice for some clients, particularly when the parent has aged, when the dynamics have softened with time, when the client's internal resources have grown enough that they can be in the relationship without losing themselves, or when the client has determined that whatever cost the relationship continues to extract is one they are choosing to pay. This is a legitimate choice. It is not a failure of healing. The work in this case is making sure the choice is genuinely a choice rather than an unconscious continuation of the original entrapment.

What matters more than the contact decision is the internal work. The contact pattern that comes out of healing is not the same as the contact pattern that comes out of unresolved trauma, even when they look superficially similar from the outside. A client who chooses no contact from a regulated nervous system and a clear sense of self is in a different place than a client who reactively cuts off contact in a moment of dysregulation. A client who maintains limited contact from a place of choice is in a different place than a client who maintains contact from fear of consequence. The work is what makes the difference, not the contact pattern itself.

What Healing Actually Looks Like (And What It Doesn't Look Like)

Healing from being raised by a narcissistic parent does not look like becoming a different person. It does not look like never being affected by anything the parent says or does. It does not look like a sudden ability to spend time with the parent without any internal reaction. It does not look like resolving the relationship in a way the parent participates in.

What healing actually looks like is the gradual recovery of access to a self that was buried. The adult child begins to know what they want without first checking what someone else wants. They notice when their body is bracing and can identify what triggered it. They can be in contact with the parent without losing track of their own reality. They can leave a difficult interaction without spiraling into self-blame. They can disagree with someone and not experience it as a threat to the relationship. They can need something from a partner and ask for it directly.

The internal voice that locates everything wrong in the self begins to soften. It does not disappear, but its volume reduces, and the adult child develops the capacity to recognize it as the voice of the family system rather than the voice of accurate self-assessment. Decisions become less effortful because they no longer require performing a calculation about how everyone else will respond before any preference can register internally.

The body changes too. The chest tension before family events lessens. The dread of phone calls decreases. Sleep deepens. Sex and intimacy become possible in a way that does not require constant management of the partner's state. Friendships balance out, with the adult child receiving as well as giving. Work performance often becomes both better and easier, because it is no longer being driven by the underlying anxiety that something is wrong with you that must be compensated for through achievement.

None of this happens all at once. The patterns developed over decades, and they unwind over years, with substantial change typically appearing in the first six to twelve months of sustained somatic trauma therapy and continued integration over the following years. The work also tends to produce moments of grief that arrive unexpectedly. The grief is for the child who needed something different and did not get it, for the years organized around survival rather than living, for the version of the relationship that was not possible. Grief is part of healing, not evidence that the healing is failing.

Checklist: Were You Raised by a Narcissistic Parent?

Read through these slowly, and notice what happens in the body as well as the mind.

• You learned early to track your parent's emotional state and adjust yourself accordingly, often before you had words for it

• You feel responsible for the emotional reality of people around you in a way that does not quite feel like normal caring

• You cannot easily access your own preferences without first checking what others might want

• You have a persistent sense that something is wrong with you that you cannot quite identify and that does not seem to respond to evidence to the contrary

• You second-guess your own perceptions, particularly when they conflict with what someone else is insisting is true

• You feel younger, smaller, or less yourself when you are with your parent, even as an adult

• You experience physical bracing before family events or phone calls with your parent

• You have been told you are too sensitive, too emotional, too dramatic, or too much, often by the same parent

• You have done significant therapy or self-work on your family of origin and still find the patterns continuing

• You cannot remember what you wanted to be or do before you started trying to be what someone else wanted

• You are extraordinarily competent in the external world and chronically uncertain in your internal world

If five or more of these resonate, what you are carrying is real, and it is treatable. The patterns formed during the years when your nervous system was developing, which is also why they have persisted. The same fact that explains the persistence is also the entry point for change, because nervous systems remain capable of reorganization throughout life when given the right conditions.

Frequently Asked Questions

How do I know if my parent was actually narcissistic or just a difficult person?

The clinical question is not whether your parent met DSM criteria for Narcissistic Personality Disorder. The clinical question is whether the relational pattern in your family of origin produced the structural inversion in which your job became managing the parent's emotional state rather than the parent taking care of yours. If that pattern was present, regardless of whether the parent had a diagnosable disorder, the developmental impact is similar. Many adult children spend years trying to determine whether their parent was "really" narcissistic. The more useful question is whether your developmental environment shaped you in the ways narcissistic parenting does. If yes, the healing work is the same regardless of the label.

Can I heal from this if I still have to be in contact with my parent?

Yes. The healing work is internal. While reducing or ending contact can support healing, it is not strictly required for the work to proceed. Many adult children of narcissistic parents do significant healing while remaining in some level of contact, because the work is about updating your nervous system's response to the patterns rather than physically removing yourself from them. What changes is your relationship to the dynamics, not necessarily the presence of the dynamics in your life.

Why do I feel guilty for being angry at my parent?

The guilt is often part of the original pattern. Narcissistic parents typically establish, explicitly or implicitly, that the child's negative feelings toward them are unacceptable. The child learns to suppress, redirect, or internalize the anger because expressing it produced consequences that destabilized the relationship. In adulthood, the anger surfaces but the suppression mechanism is still running, producing guilt about the anger itself. The guilt is not evidence that the anger is wrong. It is evidence that the original prohibition is still active.

Is it really possible to change patterns that formed in childhood?

Yes, though the change happens at the level where the patterns were encoded, which is generally not the level where most people initially try to address them. Patterns encoded in implicit relational memory, the autonomic nervous system, and the body's somatic responses respond to interventions that work at those levels. EMDR, Brainspotting, CRM, and similar somatic trauma modalities are specifically designed to reach these levels. Cognitive understanding, while valuable, does not produce the same kind of change because it cannot reach the encoding directly.

How long does healing from narcissistic parenting take?

This varies depending on the severity of the dynamics, the presence of other developmental trauma, the client's current life stability, and the depth of dissociation. Many clients experience significant relief within the first six to twelve months of consistent somatic trauma therapy. Substantial reorganization, the kind that produces durable changes in the basic self, typically continues over the following years. The work is not infinite, and it does have an endpoint, but it does require time at the depths where the wound lives.

Will I become like my parent if I do not heal?

Most adult children of narcissistic parents are terrified of becoming like their parent and go to extraordinary lengths to avoid it, which is itself one of the patterns. The fear of becoming the parent is not the same as the risk of becoming the parent. The risk is usually not narcissism itself but a different set of patterns: hyper-attunement to others at the expense of self, difficulty with intimacy, perpetuating the dynamics in adult relationships, struggling to parent your own children without the same emotional unavailability that affected you. Healing addresses these patterns directly.

Can my partner help me heal?

Yes, in important ways, but not by replacing the therapy. A partner who is emotionally available, who can hold their own emotional reality without requiring you to regulate it for them, and who is patient with the patterns as they emerge is providing a corrective relational experience that is genuinely healing. They cannot, however, substitute for the somatic trauma work that the deeper patterns require. The partnership and the therapy work in parallel and reinforce each other.

Does therapy work over telehealth for this kind of trauma?

Yes. Somatic trauma therapy delivered via secure video conferencing is as effective as in-person therapy for the kind of developmental work that adult children of narcissistic parents need. Many clients find that the familiarity and control of their own environment actually supports the somatic process. I provide somatic trauma therapy via telehealth across New York, Florida, and all PsyPact states.

What if my parent is dead and I am still carrying this?

The patterns do not require the parent to be alive in order to continue. They are encoded inside you and run automatically. The good news is that the death of the parent, while it may complicate the grief work, does not foreclose the healing. Many adult children of narcissistic parents begin or continue therapy after the parent has died, and the somatic trauma work proceeds in the same way it would if the parent were still alive.

When You Are Ready to Live as Yourself

You have spent a long time being whatever the room required. The performance became so automatic that you forgot it was a performance. The self you might have been if you had been raised by someone who could see you went underground so early that you may not remember choosing it. You have done the work of understanding what happened. You may have been doing that work for years. What you have not yet had access to is the kind of intervention that reaches the level where the patterns are actually running, and that gives the self underneath the patterns the conditions to come back up.

The work I do with adult children of narcissistic parents is not about blaming the parent. It is not about staying angry. It is not about confronting them, or fixing them, or getting them to acknowledge what they did. It is about you. About the child you were who needed something they could not get. About the adult you became to survive the absence. And about the self underneath, the one who has been waiting all this time, who is still there.

You are not too much. You were a child whose feelings were too much for someone whose job it was to hold them.

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Dr. Maria Niitepold, PsyD

EMDRIA-Trained Trauma & Somatic Therapist

Serving High-Achievers Across New York and Florida

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(Disclaimer: This blog post is for educational purposes and does not constitute medical advice or a formal doctor-patient relationship. If you are experiencing a mental health crisis, please contact your local emergency services or call 988.)